Hope is on the horizon…
I’ve been very quiet on here for the last month… here’s what I’ve been up to! I’ve been kicking shame in the butt by: Opening up about our fertility struggles Since I posted last time about sharing with the missionary couple about our struggle to conceive, and starting fertility tests, I have shared this blog… Continue reading Kicking ‘Shame’ in the backside
I’ve been quiet on here because I’ve been struggling generally the last two weeks or so. There, I’ve said it. I think I have mild depression. I have been having some insomnia, low motivation, overeating, low moods, tearfulness. And it didn’t help that my period came this month. My body is letting me know I’m… Continue reading Truths and Lies
I’ve been a little quiet on here lately, because I went on a little long weekend get-away! A change of routine was what I needed. I’ve always loved this quote by Banksy. As a society we are not very good at resting. The pressure to be productive 24/7 and to ‘win’ at life is everywhere.… Continue reading Learn to rest
Quite frequently I see posts in the Vaginismus Support group about the struggle to ‘come out’ to friends about the experience of vaginismus – especially when those friends have never heard of it. The fear of judgement, of being laughed at, is very real. Personally, I have been fairly open about vaginismus and told most… Continue reading How to support a friend with vaginismus
While decluttering over the weekend I stumbled upon an old letter from an old friend. When I re-read the letter, it triggered in me an intense sensation like a deep punch to my guts. This was someone who was a good friend at university and with whom we shared some ups and downs together, had… Continue reading Thoughts on friendship, rupture, and healing
My period came a few hours after I posted my last entry. I wasn’t surprised, but I was disappointed. I had a little cry and released my sadness. In some ways I felt God has been preparing me through the scriptures I had been reading recently, and I was able to move through my sadness… Continue reading Another month of barrenness
Usually when I post I have a general idea of what I want to share, a main message of encouragement, a few key bullet points, and then I set aside say 20 mins or so and just vomit words out on a word document. Today I just want to write. To just be authentic, with… Continue reading An unplanned post
Last night I had a bad muscle day. Normally, by now, I can pretty easily get dilator 6 in for 5 minutes or so with a little discomfort. Last night, 3 wouldn’t even go in. My muscles felt tight, tense, and no amount of breathing exercises was shifting it. So, I just stopped and packed… Continue reading Dilating: Bad muscle day
My husband and I both wanted kids and as soon as we got married, we wanted to get pregnant straight away. We didn’t bother with birth control – little did we know, vaginismus was the best natural birth control for us *eye roll*. Joking aside, it really grieved me in the early days of our… Continue reading Vaginismus and TTC (trying to conceive)
I was chatting to a friend this morning and I found myself quite passionately saying that I wish there was more Christian teaching on sex. NOT the ‘avoid pre-marital sex or you’re forever doomed’ nor the ‘flee from sexual immorality’; not ‘masturbation is a sin’ nor ‘keep your mind pure from sexual thoughts’ etc. But… Continue reading The sex-positive message I wish I had heard
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